Slept roughly 5 hrs. last night. Because I allowed fear to steer my thinking. I call that ego driven.

And by the way, it looks like that anything got sorted with the contractor anyhow.

So one more time it proofs, allowing fear within yourself, is a waste of time = lifetime.

So often today I asked myself is it a right think to do, the project I’m driving forward?

The honest answer to it, I don’t know and only time can and will tell. I tend more and more often to the point of view, that if I don’t stay in the way of my own life, it will develop itself properly in a positive way anyhow.

But I try hard to avoid this positive part of it, it looks like, because I build this walls of resistance cemented by fear in my brain. Crazy I know.

So for everyone, avoid this as good as possible, I try too.