I’m really thankful that the young doctor listened to me and together, we came after a reinsuring check carried out by her, to the same conclusion. She decided the medications to use and with regards of their amounts and length to take them. It was a very constructive visit. I’m already benefiting from the proper meds and it feels already so much better. The stuff I’ve to take, pushes you down, has an huge impact on your Physiology, but it goes now definitely in the right direction.

Today, I showed myself two things.

First, I was to negative yesterday and bound my expectations on past experiences instead embracing the Now.

Second, as I wasn’t able to sleep at all last night - sleep tracking recorded roughly 4 hrs. - definitely not enough for me - that I used this time to positive prepare myself in how to properly present my story. As I know my own body now already close to half a century (sounds cool), I was able to draw a proper picture of myself.

I was way more anxious during the night, really felt quite bad and helpless, but it turned out to be the right call.

The conclusion of all of that, I’m still able to learn - and I’m happy and thankful to be able to do so!

The bad thing I did today, I’m definitely not over my addiction, I bought a lot of sweet stuff - didn’t eat all of it - but it happened in alike unconscious state. Kind of frightening.