When you were used to good internet bandwidth (felt as speed) and then it declines steadily. Over the last year from 18 MBit/s synchronous, it went down to 1-3 Mbit/s most of the the day. And you can not even throw money at it - not enough at least - that’s so sad and more than frustrating.

When things were working and now are in decline - this feels in many areas the case these days and it’s not about materials that are aging or devices that are failing.

I find in so many areas that the lack of “caring about the things” (machinery, animals, people, life itself) is at an increasing rate and I’m worried as well as thinking about it, how to tackle this.

I just listen to a documentary and realize I’m not Paul Dirac, only myself. And I have to be and often, I am okay with that.

It must be good enough, for the challenges to face.