Do I decide what to do and take ownership again of a future that’s worth living for me, the people close too and around me, or stay in a kind of catatonic state.

It is my fear, the uncertainties of a divorce process that’s clear to be unfair, because the law behind it doesn’t care about the important details. It is kind of a victim state I’m in for sure, but the surroundings aren’t giving a lot of opportunities at the moment.

I still want to do good for and in the world, because it’s not about the individual only. But for this wish in an still “growth oriented” world, with no one willing to change beyond talking about it, maybe including myself.

But I won’t give up , won’t surrender. For my girls, the earth inhabitants and yes for myself, too. Iconic words used, dramatic involved, but nonetheless exactly that way I mean it, too.

Their is simple no need to proof myself anymore, in front of anyone and is not my egoism. I’m sure of that and thankful, too.