And there are people in your own family that can not cope with it, not allow it - it’s sad.

I always be happy for my kids when they enjoy things and it looks like, at least on the outside, they are happy. My older daughter didn’t allowed that happiness for me to stay, as I learned today. I don’t believe her hate is generated all by herself, but judging - I’m so sick of it, because it is a waste of my lifetime in the end.

I’m really don’t getting it at all, as I do not have any relationships, friends or family nearby, except my two girls. But I do love all earth inhabitants, that includes human beings, but it looks like I’m incapable of communicating these broad love, for everything.

So I’m very often be fascinated by myself and how much work I still am.