And have only “guilt relationships” I call it, left.

Someone you are depending on (most times because of money - in a broken system anyhow), or people you try to support and take care for (kids) and others they want to suck out your blood (usually also about money only; Ex and her partner).

Sometimes it really sucks and today is one of these days.
When you have people around, that you are love and care about deeply and despite that, you feel completely alone.

Can’t put this “load” on the kid(s), especially on the one, who likes to stay with me.