Because of the systems in place that also making my life more miserable as it is necessary. For sure, I’m falling back into „victim mode“ and be as good in it as anyone else, too.

That’s because I’m angry about myself …
- fell back in “victim mode”
- blaming anyone and anything else around me
- not being “smart enough” to have valid and none destructive solutions for the problems I’m facing.

That’s life - I’m still alive, so I won’t and can give up and tomorrow is another day - could become one of the best ones of my life.