The hard thing ...
About being able to build up a relationship again.
I saw stunning, beautiful women to my eye today - but I wouldn’t have any idea how I approach them anyhow.
It’s not to be unable talking to them, I guess, but what I don’t want, to destroy relationships as it happened to me.
May I’ll never will be together again with someone?
Someone I can trust, that I feel secure with and because of that, I’m capable to love her.
I won’t become someone I don’t want to be, even that means, my “love life” is over for good.
And yes, it is absolutely possible that I don’t understand “Love” at all.
And yes, I believe it is something heavily needed by humanity, but it is in steep decline, too.