Then I hand over the bank drafts, I’ll learn how much I’ve to pay in Dec. on Capital Gains tax to the government and in a way I’m free, because even with all the stuff I’m surrounded by, nothing really belongs to me anymore.

As everything has to be sold (returned to family) and handed over to my children (still have a couple of years, with a roof over my head 😁), that they’ll have a kind of a backed start, I hope, into their adult life >25.
I’m kinda free and don’t really feel bad at all about it.

For sure I try to win the lottery. Not to live the great life, that I deserve. No, to hopefully show off the ways (as long as money has to be involved) how to do it different “in a better, a bit more positive way”, for any life on this planet.

I do hope to be than able to succeed, to support life, any life, on this planet a little better.