In seeing old pictures from my kids at events where I’m wasn’t present, because I worked or couldn’t afford to be with them.

On the other hand I’m happy for them, that they had this experiences with their grandparents.

Have so much urgent repairs, because some of them have potential health impacts (mold). But not all the spare parts to work around the issues are available to me.
There will be a way, as long as I’m alive, change is always possible.