Maybe embarrassed about myself 🤔

Yesterday, after close to 6 years I was in a social gathering with people I didn’t know again.

And what did I do, telling all my sad stories, so that anyone know, I’m the little poor victim of an unfair life.

For sure a couple of times, I brought up, to keep interest of the listener, how life’s treating me well, only to continue with even more sad stories.

This morning I was thinking about that, how could I made it differently?

With one conclusion of telling all the great things I did, experienced throughout my life, but that would be sound towards somebody else as bragging all the way.

As someone who believes in the “middle ground”, not going for the extremes, I kinda failed myself and the people around me, because of my interactions.

Do I see a clear solution here for myself?

So in helping others to feel better, or help them grow, I concluded that I would have failed.

One solution might be to listen more and not falling in love with myself (ego) to getting my views out. Instead of this I should gather what others feel and think even more.

I really like, for my kids and my own sake, that humanity does not extinct itself and all surrounding life on this planet, but didn’t feel with yesterday, I provide help with that.

BTW I know that self blame, isn’t helping self development either.