I'm not there yet ...
But more concerned about my neighbour’s wife at present, more than about my “own problems” in the moment, she’s in the hospital and I hope she will be well soon.
Yes, there is a little bit of egoism involved, to be not completely alone around Christmas, but in this case with a positive side effect.
It only shows once more how precious life is and I can’t fathom how people can hurt others physically or mentally often so easily on purpose without regret.
May they do not understand what happens?